Projectme

 “You’re crazy if you think this will work, this was a huge mistake.” As I was sitting in the Southern California sun this past Sunday, enjoying an overpriced kale-avocado wrap at a cute cafe, my brain should have been blissfully happy…instead it was LOUD and NASTY. This inner bully of mine gets so intense when I’m going after new and bigger things, I start thinking I’m schizophrenic. The voice is my head is so loud and clear…then my higher self starts talking back to it (as I’ve trained it to do) then a shouting match starts in my brain.  It’s exhausting and often paralyzing. What saves me is I know this is all happening simply because I’m scared. I then detach from that nasty bully, and see her as a terrified girl lashing out. I softly and lovingly ask her, “What would help you feel more secure and supported right now?”  (Sometimes I do this as a writing exercise, and sometimes I have this full conversation out loud.) Her answer on Sunday was, “I don’t know, but I don’t want to feel this way.” So I spoke to