Projectme

 If you don’t you this, you will never make it to you goal! As someone who was raised in a very controlling and abusive environment, I was taught from an infant to rely on other people to determine my worth, my value, and my capabilities. As I messily navigated my teen and adult life, I would turn my self inside out at my internships and jobs in order to get the accolades, the awards, and the promotions…..when I got them I was on MAJOR HIGH, and when I didn’t I was left with suicidal thoughts. This is one of the many dangers of depending on people, places, awards, achievements, and things outside of ourselves to determine if we are deserving of what we desire, and if we are “good enough” to make it. The problem is when we constantly seek and depend on outside validation; we are putting our happiness, livelihood, and wellbeing in the control of others. I had ZERO CLUE that I was living this way, I didn’t know any better. I was trained by many abusers to operate this way, so they could have total control over m